Karma is a funny little bitch sometimes. I’ve been on a diet, low carbs, limited food, to help drop some weight, so tonight, trying to be lazy, I decided TacoBell. I pulled out of he driveway and 100 feet later, blew a tire. It was almost a poetic kick to me letting me know that I need to stay on target. That’s how the day wrapped up. During the day I had an interesting up and down set of emotions about recent events. The day didn’t start that way, but I received call after call and text after text from random friends and family about random things. Normally my day is full of spam calls, but this was an ironic change from the daily spam.
On thing I decided today is that I must start focusing on myself, which is a huge 180 degree turn from my past. I have put friends and family before myself, and they become dependent upon that emotion. When my partner and my kids have bad days, I suddenly become the traffic cop for adults. It’s been getting more and more toxic over time, but now it’s time to break that dependency on me. I know there is more to say on this, I had ideas earlier, but they were lost into the great void. Blame it on the ADHD or age. ☹